another sorry or regret?

does the title sound serious? hmm it definitely not tat serious..
jus tat i feel sad unhappy bout over tis small thing..
i had turned down my dear for her party.. i had my own reasons, which i hav to choose so, to avoid myself frm suffer further.. im try to doing right but not doing as wat i wish, yea is for my own good, but y, i feel so down..
dun understand wat is the big deal?  i dun und myself too, why so difficult..
u may say tat im too emotional and over sentimental on wrong area.. maybe..
i wanted to go so much but yet i cant go..
i know it is a big gathering tat i shouldnt miss.. been long time i nv feel the feel with a big bunch of frens.. n the chance getting less n less.. i found tat all of them r at kl, i feel im not belong to there anymore.. as i had finished my study, n choose to get job at singapore later..
i und tat as life goes on, ppl come and go in ur life..
the distance with frens get bigger n bigger..
well, it's jus part of the process..
but tis make me uncomfortable...
i feel so lonely n dull in my own island..
is the road to my dream future is the same?
but wat to do? we got to move on ... for my own future~~
i love Liverpool because, you will never walk alone

p/s: im so stress and boring at the same time. everything becomes meaningless due to my stupid weakness... hope all of this disappear at the nxt morning whn i wake up..