2011

在倒数新年的夜晚，我哭了，因为想起了爸爸去年跟我说的跨年笑话，再也听不到了，剩下对爸爸的思念。。

今天是爸爸的头七，早上请师夫做了烟供，师父再三叮咛我们要多念经 ：( 一整天下来，只在睡前念了一下。。没用的我。。

从早上手忙脚乱地准备供品和祭品，下午才到爸爸的灵位拜祭，没有哭了，我们面对的很坦然。。但心中那份空虚有谁知。

下午也去看婆婆，状况很好，也接受了。聊着，“以前都是Tao Lin(爸爸)买的 现在没有了。”说着，婆婆眼眶红了。好心疼，但我们必须坚强。也鼓励婆婆要往好的方面想。。

我好想这样待在妈妈身边，但假期完了就要回到自己的岗位了。。。

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幸好爸晚上睡得着，是睡得着吗，还是半昏迷了，我不知道，不时看到他呼吸变快，翻着白眼，好心疼。
三点多，我摸爸的手，有体温了，但葡萄糖似乎卡在手臂了，爸加油，吸收多点好吗？
爸，我真的希望你会好起来，但我担心你太辛苦，告诉我该怎么办？
不断为爸诵经。。点灯。。点了无数盒，买了又没了。。只有不断的祈祷～～
我困了，睡着了，希望醒来之后，这只是一场梦：( 拜托。。。

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来电显示 Mummy
电话那头是妹的声音，但模糊到我听不清她在说什么，隐约一句“你在哪里，回家好吗？” 然后哽咽。。。
吓坏我了，怎么办？ 我不想胡思乱想但是这样的情况叫我怎么不害怕。 儿时不说，我从没看过我妹哭，到底是什么状况让她哭了。
回家途中，脑子不断飘着零零碎碎的画面，有多少串不完整的记忆，记得很清楚的是，每次回新加坡前，爸爸的一句“加油”。
那么虚弱的爸爸都不忘为我加油，但我却一句加油都没对他说过。。我到底是个多没心的人。。
没事的吧，说你只是寂寞，想要我们回去陪你，我回来了，没事的对吧.加油，Daddy!
拜托拜托。。

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Xmas Eve

Sitting at KFC, 2 more hours to go~~ waiting bus go bck to KL~~
Going back home become one of  irritating process >_<
bt going bck home is alw wat we look forward to~~
Dun feel today is xmas eve as no plan for today at all.

Yday was a good day, working half day n attend a company year end event, relaxing~~
but dun get any price.frm Lucky draw T_T arghh~~~

got a photo with Baby F, cant count how long we nv take photo tgt. Hehe. I feel that i neglect my frens quite a lot~~ did I? Or tis is the way i alw do~~ Lol.

feeling so Good got My dearest working in the same company. Sometime whn really work until pek cek, thn can meet dearest at office, chit chat for while, bright up my day too. Y we r nt in the same department. Wonder y i nv thk to study ACCA, haha.

P/s: tis android app really works, nice one :-D

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冬至

冬至快乐～～每逢佳节，游子的感觉特别强烈。。人在异乡，虽然不是那么的遥远，但也称得上是外国的月亮。。好想回家，几时才不是当游子？
谢谢阿姨，一碗热腾腾的汤圆，好温馨 ：)

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Xmas coming~~

Looking forward to the holidays.
SurprisE, 2 xmas presents from superiors today, wat a good day~~ i like working with ppl who knows appreciation.
but jobs like mountain suddenly :( tell me how to enjoy!

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love

May you live in happiness forever my dear~~
We grown up tgt, share the same childhood memory, we did a lot of stupid thing tgt,
even that we seldom contact each other, even that my role is not tat significant in ur life now..
but seeing you get married, make me feel so touch...
Love you alw, my dear~~
i dunno how to express my feeling, i hope one hug that you can understand~~

Yeah, childhood gang~~

welll, im the one who dun hav much patient, cant stay still for long,very forgetful..

sometimes, i really dunno wat is left with me.. wat i know what i remember is only the surface...

whatever, i jus wish a peace n happy life.. my smile, laugher should alw more than sighing.. 

Dad is retiring officially, i feel little bit sad, as he wan to shut his business down, wat he put in so much effort.. but tis is right too, most important now is tat my dad can get well and enjoy himself, JIA YOU ~~!!

I must work hard also, cant be defeated.. take things easy.. calm n steady.. i can do it !! 

P/S: oh dear, is end of the year

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想想人生短短几十年，到底怎样才快乐，

不想太多，不想打拼，想安安分分过日子，

才知道安安分分也不容易，知足常乐不是容易领悟。。

看见爸爸那么辛苦，好心疼，好无助，好害怕。。

但what can i do, 只会埋怨生活多无趣，haih... 

我们都知道健康多重要，但却不经意的把它忽略掉。。

在巴士上，听见一个“皮条子” 和莫莫外来女士的对话，

才知道有些人生活是那么卑贱，但也许对他们来说这只是现实，

但我觉得那女士好残，真的是没路可选了吗?

世界那么多黑暗面，庆幸我在光明面

不管生活给你多大的负面，我们总有一个很难得的正面，

正因为我们活着。。

p/s: 觉悟，谈何容易。。。

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想念有人陪我哭的日子，虽然我哭的很残，至少我有人陪。。
想念有人陪我笑的日子，或许是那么简单的事。。。

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C

Happy Birthday C...

So happy to c you to go for ur dream.. even though we know it aint come so easy..

but jus do it ~~!! you will nv left any regret.. even though we may not fulfill the dreams tgt..

we alw say life is like tis la, but we still spending all the time figure it out through the way.. so JIAYOU ba !!!

P/S: Seriously, i had drafted this 3 months ago but i stop halfway.. im not good in express myself i think.. kekeke

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Mid-Autumn

Happy Mooncake festival / Mid-autumn, everyone~~

no lantern，candle light，mooncake, family, frens, celebration, only the big round moon hanging on the sky which i dun even look at it....


well, we wait for all kind of festival for celebration, but whn they are coming, u will feel no diff for the day.. is it bcos no celebration? just like everyday is the same..

i wan things as simple as these *google image*

i dunno wat can really make me happy nowadays, sometimes a simple n lame jokes or a simple yamcha or outing will do, but im not getting all those now..life is too stress n strict these days..

i had been wondering, thinking and considering but i dun dare to make a move.. i cant just act without thinking, or wat ppl says just do it, i hav to think think think...

i know life is about gamble, we need opportunities and wait for timing.. which i cant predict the right for me :(

can i JUST DO IT? i know it may be in some time future, but y i cant decide now..

p/s: 2 days MC, so happy. i know it is not the right "ATTITUDE", but i cant help.. hahhaa..

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Merdeka !!

today is national day..
no feel of it oso.. is it bcos i hav no holiday today or i m not patriotic at all?
do we ever feel happy for of our country? :X no comment...
anyway, happy birthday Malaysia..

no special feeling during working today, is not a bad thing too..

p/s: waiting for weekend agn~~~

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这一刹那， 我觉得我好像忘了什么，错过了什么

我放空频密 我毫无情绪 我面无表情 我冷漠不语 

那时的澎湃 续退温
当时的冲劲 寻不回

现在的真情 浑然在

只怪时间不停留 你我必前行

p/s: 一堆感触， 让我多思

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another goal attained.. a long ago plan completed... 

whn one path ending,which will be the next?

im wondering should i follow the flow now which seen favorable? 

which may not be wat i wan in the future.. 

im jus so tiny, i dunno wat can i do !!!! arghhhhhhhh........

p/s: tmr if FRIDAY :) 

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happy father's day

Happy father's day to my dearest daddy~~

seriously cant find a photo for daddy n me :( my dad dun like to take photo nowadays.. 

tis is hardly event that he takes photo.. 

thanks to my dad.. so so much.. he is the one who inspire me much in my life..

my dad, a super love nagging dad.. getting more n more, but as my fren, nagging is kind of act to show Love, yup, thx daddy for loving us all time..  

my dad, a good role model for us, holds a lot of own principles and concepts.. teaching and leading us to proper value of life.. mb we are still too young (sometimes in thinking) to get you, but we know wat you do is alw for our own good. thx daddy~~~ 

my dad complaint me for nv call back to home for more than 1 month!! hahaha... i jus dunno how to communicate even with my parents.. so sorry for tis..  

LOVE DADDY.. hope he can stay healthy and live happily !!! 

is weekend n im free~~~ browsing PPS for some new drama update.. found tis, material queen~~

it makes me miss Paris even more.. i love Paris, love this feel.. i wish i could hav tis feel in my future wedding photos~~ yes, isnt it good idea? 

but back to reality, we have to earn hard for tis, earn hard doesnt mean u can get it definitely.. :( 

let's wait one day whn i going back to Paris.. i jus wan tis !!!  

Realise smthg --> live in the moment...

alw think tat wat i go through now is for future.. sometimes dun even enjoy the moment i live now..

wonder will i still feel missing smthg even i reach the future i wan in some day? 

i wish i could live in the moment.. EVERY pls !!!

p/s: LIVE IN THE MOMENT !!! Gambateh ~~!!!! 

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may day

Mum visit to sg~~~ makan makan with family ^^ so delicious~~ 

candy sis visit to sg~~ makan makan n walk walk agn :) 1st time hanging out after working time.. so so tired but the night life is really great, sitting down at bar/pub n drinking with frens, anyone?

 

Happy birthday to my cousin, Fion~

1st time celebrate with her... guitar playing by cousin, so funny~~~

tis is my family at sg, even though we may not be so active alw as every1 is busying with own work..

but still feel great to stay tgt with them, at least they make me feel little like home at here...  

had my 1st leave of my working life, so happy !! i got to go back to kl for more days~~ but for examination.. 

luckily stil got few hours time wth my dear.. we forgot to take photo tgt agn... haha

back to kl, is makan makan time, i eat from morning to night.. full every moment.. but stil cant stop eating..

spent a lot eating at msia, haha.. 

i wanna to keep fit !!! hope tat i can do it at sg? keke.. 

say hi to my mask leg, my face bcome more cham after i start working.. 

or m i really old dy? so sad.. 

working make me so stress.. face greatest challenges in my life.. i jus wan a peace life... PLEASE !!!! 

I can rite? can rite? can rite? 

suddenly miss k-session~~ but i cant get myself sing happily without good condition of my throat..

 y my throat alw upset.. i cant sing now :(

p/s: can i jus SKIP? i dunno even know whr do i wan to skip to? :(

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happy mother's day

a simple dinner at home, to celebrate mother's day. but they were all prepared by my mum. haha.. so we jus take the yday meal which belanja as i got my 1st salary as mother's day celebration can? simple dishes, but is extremely yummy, thx mum. 

HAPPY MOTHER's DAY

a cake for her, but eaten mostly by us. lolz. 

about my mum?

she is fierce, and serious, 

as her job, she is strict and hot temper. 

NO NO tat is the old her, she is now understanding caring and friendly, every1 feels her changing, the power of "Love Education", i think she learned something from the books and from us, she is willing to accept new things, and adopt herself in tis new generation, jus like she accepted facebook and use it to interact all her colleague, old frens, family, and even her students. (her web emotion and language can be as in as we Y generation) 

i dunno wat to say to my mum. Jus a simple I LOVE YOU. 

i hope i will be sensible enough for not letting u worry about me anymore, and be competent enough to get myself a good life and to support u and dad.

Thx mum for everything, the effort u put on us and the family.. it is not easy to be a career woman cum housewife. Thanks. 

p/s: today is Sunday :(

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GOOD FRIDAY n SAT

 the most happy and most looking forward part of the week, definitely weekend, after so long time nv feel tis (been holidays quiet a long time, stop stop stop, keep continuing make me miss more about those days T.T)

It was really a good friday~~~ even i hav to wake up very early in the morning, 5am, to get prepared to go back to msia~~ luckily no much jam at custom, i cant imagine the traffic later.... 

able to get 7am bus back to kl, much earlier than we expected, yippee~~

fri starting from afternoon, makan movie tea time makan and later night,

 yam cha session with all kluang-er at kl~~ thx guys for making effort coming from diff places, but can only out for while, im sorry for tat... let's meet at klg ya.. 

sat is a full day, date my advance gang to lunch at pavillion, miss them so much..  frens are quiet separated now, penang kl sg and even uk.. feel good to meet u all, i know 2 3 hours r no enough for us to chat, let's make it longer nxt time.. 

meet my sis to shopping, think to shop so much.. too bad i got no much time to shop..  nxt time ok, sis? 

hmm.. after so long winded post, lack of some colours? here they come, thx sharon for most the photos. i didnt take any photos for myself agn. 

wat is the nxt? BBQ, i like it mush!! 

=.=

yess im happy.. 

the night is stil young la, Library at IOI Boulevard, puchong,1st time been thr, like the place.. as thr got lots of choices... ... 

everyone enjoy ya~~ thx for the organisation, shall we meet nxt time, which is nxt month perhaps?

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time fly~~  time to go back..so enjoy the time at kl, we will meet soon rite? T.T 

the new bus stop.. forget the name.. xx bersepadu xx... 

is really nice.. seriously malaysia need much more tis kind of facility.. tis can be one of the improvement.. 

back to sg... a simple dinner, cost me 5.90, yum yum ~~

thurs night... OMG~~ tis week passes fast, i like it ~~!!! coming weekend at home, YEAH~~~~

another long weekend~~~ im pampered, can i jus work 4 days a week, i think i should be satisfied then..    ok we meet in my dream later ya.. 

p/s:  T.G.I.F.mood ^^

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is sunday night..

been 2 weeks since my last post.. so fast? yup.. working life past very fast and oso slow.. fast whn u count weekend by weekend, slow whn u wait for ur weekend.. 

hmm... working without any goal now... jus wan to pass my weekdays.. I know it is not a wise way...  

as most of us feel, it is much lifeless than wat we had as a student...  

i got to find a lifestyle for tis long-life working life~~~ for time being, i jus had short term goal, wait for weekend, wait for end of the month.. OMG~!! shouldnt like tis !!!

okay, my short term goal is here agn, coming fri is public holiday~~!!! time to go back to kl~~~ 

walk around shopping movie singk makan-makan and yam cha, yuhoo~~~~ anyone? 

meantime, still feel monday blue, from now, Sunday's night.. lolz.. 

as i said, i should enjoy my work, but i still couldnt, is tis suitable for me? it is still too early to say~

cut the long thought, 4 more days to go~~ tis can temporary moving me on~~~~

P/s: Mon Tues Wed Thurs... ... Good FRIDAY~~~ and lovely weekend~~~~ r waiting for me... 

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Hellooooooooooooooooooooo

hello~~ im back agn...

quiet long since my last post? finally i got internet connection at new place. (2 weeks dy? lolz) 

settled down here? half gua. stil missing wat i use to hav. but tis is not bad thing to venture out. 

everytime after u depress and struggle,then adapitng, new experience gaining, on and off.. 

it (is) colours (ing) my life :)

about my job, i could only say i still need some commitment, i cant bear to OT so long everyday.. we need some balance on life rite? but y they can tahan? ok, another thing to learn.
so many brain energy needed whn wroking.. im learning to be awake !!! no more blur-ing and careless. no more day dreaming mode, mb reduce? 

hmm... i feel tat i seldom record my life now, one bcos of the routine of weekdays.. the other, i dunno..so long time nv take photo.. dunno y too.. mb need some motivation, a new camera? lolz.

trying hard wat did i do here others than daily routine,

IT show, much more bigger and crowded than wat we had in msia. c tis notice once i got thr, til i leave.. non-stop crowd.. diff frm kl, every family with one 40" LCD Tv, i wonder is it tat cheap? even signing for singtel, hav to wait 2 hours?!! tat's y we were thr tat long.. 

Food Expo, well, i go bcos i feel so new, do we hav tis kind of fair at msia? no matter, i nv been such fair. so many stalls selling diff kind of foodssssss, but my tummy cant hav them all.. 

tis is yummy !!! i miss it so much, i dunno whr to find tis at sg :(

 so as tis, yum !!! 

only 2 photos taken. the fair satisfied me. as all the cafe n food court at sg selling the same things, makan every whr oso the same. mb i should start searching ways to find special food and restaurant, jus like wat we alw do at kl~~

oh ya, im listing down all the activities to do and things to eat whn nxt trip back to kl, which is 3 weeks later,
opps, jus realise tat i dun hav so much time thr!!

one thing which surprise me recently, my cousin going to is married. quite worry about her, but anyway, i jus wish her happy, support her alw ^^ may all the happiness around her ~~an engagement party bring most the big family members tgt, good moment with them ^^ long time nv feel such lively in our big family, i cant wait all the wedding coming ahead, anyone?  i didnt take any photo myself, realise the importance of photo memory.

P/s: i can survive anyway :)

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arghhhhhh

I cant be on my own. I cant be in the crowd too.
So whr can i be? in my world? u lame wey~!

Arghh~~!!!
feel like shouting, whr nobody can shout with me !!!!!!!!!!!!!
no use to it. but i hav to, the road taken...
i can only shout in my heart, hope it wont alert my tears.

everything is fine but me.

P/s: I wan to be STRONG !!!!

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38 women day ~~

happy 38 women day, aka International Women Day? i c my fren post so on fb. heard my senior says tat at China, women are given half day leave today, y not sg? lolz.. 

went for team lunch today at Jack's Place, as celebration of women day and welcome of shuyi(me) in the team ^^ actually quite paiseh, cos eating with manager n supervisor and seniors, who i seldom talk too. starter- garlic bread & carrot soup, main course- grilled fish, dessert- mango pudding & one scoop of ice-cream. there are to much for me. but my manager says, dun waste food, n every1 finished all, so i try my best to eat all too. wat a full n satisfied lunch.. thanks boss for the lunch ^^

found tis at Cold Storage.. i miss it so much !!! S$5 which is offer price, normally cost about S$9-10 for tis 6pack package, so expensive!!! i forget how much i buy at UK, feel it is so expensive to hav here :(

looking at calender, finding public holidays to plan something for myself. 

p.s: too bad no public holidays in March n Thurs. Arghhhh~~~

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working life~

Arghhh~~ working days r tired~~~ 

u hav to wake up early in the morning, walk to mrt, take train, walk to office~~

sit in front the computer, typing typing typing~~ face all the doc n files, filling filling filling.

exhausted after one day working, u stil hav take the same route back to home b4 u can rest.. 

so far job assign is so simple for me.

my colleagues r all ladies, they are friendly, but stil i got no much to talk to them.. 

i stil no yet in the culture, i jus hope i didnt bring much problems to them.. 

i stil new n no used to the working routine, i feel so tired... so tis going to be my life frm now on? 

hmm i must enjoy myself then~~~ 

going back home is now a tiring journey too, bus stand n custom is crowded with ppl.. sien... 

wat to mumble? every1 jus need to make a living, tis is only beginning.. 

one thing is nice, i no need to depend on my parents anymore, 

i can earn money myself to get the things i wan, planning how to use my money, kekeke...

my turn to giv them money in near future, 

tis is my motivation now, i must work hard fighting ~~

P/s: I CAN DO IT!!! 

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im going to hav a new life.. at a new place.. a completely unfamiliar city for me.. 

quite worry n kan jiong.. i hope i can handle it well...

keep telling myself,

 I CAN DO IT !!! everything will be fine !!! 

P/S: thr wont be a goodbye, as im still near to all.. Go go aza ~~~

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ALL i said is jus because Im scared.

I know it myself. even i dunno wat im scared for, i jus worry, fear, unease...

Believe everything goods at the front waiting for me... i will be there...


P/s: i need ur power.

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Graduation !!!!

LJMU Graduation 2011 @ KLCC Plenary HAll 

 

All graduates and guests are seated~~

the ceremony took a quite long time.. is it us being too impatient? luckily, ah sue was sitting beside me, so we wont be tat boring, nv meet after back frm UK~~ miss her much :*

 

 my family and i, surprise to c my dad? he cant make it for my diploma convo, he promised me to come for my degree one ^^  they says my dad n bro look alike, do them?

 with dear and family

 

Thx to all my frens for coming, really love u all. u all really bright up my day ^^

a perfect ending to my studies... i must face the reality now, going to face my 1st permanent job in near future, i dun dare to imagine how it wil be, i only know, frm now on, i must fight for everything i wan on my own for my future !!!

 dinner with family ^^ been long time parents nv come to kl together...

 movie at the night, i dunno bout tis movie initially, it is nice to watch ^^ i dunno it should be either touch? pity? cruel? adventure spirit? courageous? all of above? or anything? one thing im sure after watching tis, i swear i wil nv be adventurer ... yess, im tat timid, i cant take it !!! (i know i know i got no chance to be oso)

P/s: im so bless to have such lovely family n frens.. I LOVE YOU ALL!! ur love will bring me through... last but no least, LOVE YOU TOO MY DEAR, thx for alw be thr for me.

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CNY 2011

Chu 1 @ PoPo house

My cousins who hardly meet~~~

CNY is same as the last, we order buffet for our reunion dinner n meals for Chu1...

every1 come back makan, chit chatting while then is end of my family gathering~~

short n simple.



Chu2 Take no picture, going back mummy kampung, nothing more u can do thr, but only wait relatives back n lunch..

Chu3, all time with frens...

Baby L's nephew, he is super cute !!!

keep on playing scissor, paper, stone with us, with only come out stone, haha..

he went back to Taiwan the nxt early morning, we may only meet him nxt year ~~~

Miss you, Liang Yi Wen~~

Chu 4, shuen bday party

our new games with football boom..


















Chu8

go to makan klang bak ku teh with dear, dear mum and sis ^^

after tat, go to 东禅寺 @ Jenjarom

the 1st time i go thr, quite nice the lantern n decoration thr..









the rest of the time of CNY, i were with my bunch of frens, hanging at one's house, eating, chitchatting and gambling!! i win no money tis year after so much time spending shouting with them... my cny end very fast as everyone goes back for own work and studies~~

The 2nd valentine's day we spend together, but no celebration for tis year too because im sick agn.. plan is forced to be cancelled. so sad. dear acc me at home the whole day. well, everyday with dear is also valentine's day~ thx dear for the gift. love so much. muacks.

P/s: updates soon

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