4days

after 4 days of working life.. exhausted... wat is the life like tis, mb it wil b most part of the rest of my life.. my god... i dunno y other can tahan but not me... but tis is me... but when working, i wont feel tired (at least until now wont)... im only sick of the process of going to and back frm work... believe me, i cant b independent... but i hav to... wat the things we need is not alw wat we wan to b o can b... but we hav to learn... is it being forced? so wat is jus b urself... u cant b urself as the society nv expect o agree with the urself tat u wan to b... u cant survive... but at tis moment im stil myself... n im alr survive until now... bcos caring and blessing frm all of u ... they say im too negative.. mb.
there r something tat i dun dare to do... but i think to do... i promised myself.. but keep postponing... u say i stil not well-prepared... is it. i oso dunno. dun ask me... i dunno ... really... i learn tis phase, it is usefulness... i dun like but i use it to survive until now.. but now i learn more... tat is im not sure.. haha...
i need more energy to go on... really.. but i know that is something that others cant help but only myself... im still working on it... but sometime it is not tat i dun wan, is i cant b.. nv say i have not try.. the fact is i failed...